can't believe it has already been four years since its opening.

sometimes, time goes too fast to recognize the current situation.. like 

where i am, how i look and what i am doing now. 

one day.. in last month, one small thought flashed across my mind that there was something wrong in my blogging behavior. it wasn't that clear what was the EXACT problem, but certainly big feeling of suspicion was coming across in my mind. YES... it was the AHA moment. 

four years ago, i set my mind to make a happy and warm place for everyone who is coming to my blog. 

four years later, this virtual space is gradually ruined by grumbling about living in this world where is impossible to be perfectly satisfied with. 

one simple question arises ; why don't you use your small concealed secret diary 

...instead of this absolutely open public and anonymous-accessible web-blog?

here is answer ; as i mentioned before, this is a place to EVACUATE EXCREMENT for me. 

there is nothing meaningful to think about and also i donno what i am saying BUT i need this place. 

just putting out something bad, something impossible to handle, something out of order in my mind. 

that's here.

don't put too much concern on this place.

i will doodle forever.. :)