so.. now i am overcoming little by little.
all right. let it make clear; i was NOT in clinical depression but have been SLIGHTLY depressed for sure.
I've been depressed for a month and half by embracing with illogical irrational unreasonable issues  floating in my mind.

one day, a sunny morning time...
i woke up in my bed and suddenly all around me seemed so bright and beautiful.
It is simple and straightforward but still awkward for me.
It is sudden, flash, surprising but happy emotional change
like the moment when you smell a good and warm apple pie
or the moment when you feel the touch of breeze on your face.

hmm.. so whimsical mid twenties.
In fact, I decide not to believe myself anymore.
Who can say positively for sure that what you are seeing and how you are feeling right now will be forever?  

who knows..
i will never know.